Hello, I'm INFINITI,

some people know me as Vanessa or V

or Earth Mama.

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Since the beginning of January, 2018

I've been guided that I should introduce myself as INFINITI.

 

When that information came to me, first that I had a Spirit Name

and that INFINITI was it, it took a bit for me to get used to it.

I didn't introduce myself as INFINITI for a long time.

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There came a point where I wasn't "allowed" to bypass it and use Vanessa anymore.

I had integrated with my Highest Self to a point where it felt like

a LIE

to not say that I am

INFINITI.

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I was told that there is an important aspect

of my name for other people to connect to.

To remember that we are ALL 

INFINITE and

we are all

EVOLVING.

New or Old Souls, many or one lifetime so far... 

Welcome.

~8~ 

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Throughout most of my life I didn't know

what I was doing, who I was, why I was here, what I was here for.

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Life was very confusing.

 

I always

KNEW THINGS.

FELT CONNECTED,

FELT PROTECTED,

FELT GUIDED,

FELT THE LOVE...

 

But life was still VERY hard.

 

Especially being so sick most of my life, diagnosed with Fibromyalgia at 25 after lifelong UNEXPLAINABLE physical issues, serious ones.

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Physical problems from the age of ONE year old. 

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Correlating the Psychic Abilities with the Physical Issues I had all of my life 

would take DECADES for me. 

 

I had very serious stomach/digestive issues started at the age of 12 to

very serious headache/brain issues starting around age 16. 

At the age of 25 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. 

 

Eventually my serious energy issues even involved strokes in my mid 30's.

 

Even the strokes that hit both sides of my body were difficult for the

medical community to explain, later I would understand that that too, was Energy related. 

 

It was my Kundalini Awakening to be exact.

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The spontaneous (a rare thing) of the "cracking open" and unleashing of the Kundalini Energy.

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It happened in two separate stages, years apart. The first in 2008 and the second in 2012.

 

I was not prepared, andI wouldn't even know what that was

for several years-way after the fact.

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If you are unfamiliar with what The Kundalini is,

it is when stored up dormant energy at the base of the spine

begins to release and flow up all the way through your Chakras,

activating them much more intensely all the way to your 3rd Eye or Pineal Gland,

in the center of your brain, then up through your Spiritual Space to your Crown Chakra.

 

People strive through meditation and yoga practice to have this happen.

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Why? 

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Connection.

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Once this energy is released and activates your 3rd eye,

you can "see" like never before,

connect to the Spiritual Realm like never before

and know yourself like never before. 

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But sometimes it is "spontaneous." 

 

The Kundalini experience really made my body go into shock energetically,

and because I was completely oblivious to it, it made things worse.

 

Much worse. 

 

Not a single doctor I saw had any idea of what was REALLY HAPPENING!

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It set of the Fibromyalgia off in a ferocious way,

and eventually, I was highly suicidal at times.

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Most people knew how sick I was, but they didn't understand how desperate 

to escape the viciousness of my existence was.

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I fantasized about different ways to 

kill myself-a lot. 

 

I wanted release from my body and a hellish painful, lonely, broken life.

 

I truly believe this is what sparked my Awakening.

 

When you want to kill yourself

but you're meant to heal people and bring light into the world,

your Spirit Tribe tends to take over.

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Free Will (in the way most people perceive it)

is a concept for some, not all.

 

More on that later & elsewhere.

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This feeling of being suicidal wasn't exclusive to how things were for me after

 

The Kundalini, but before too-it just got more intense. Living on both sides was tough.

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After the 2nd event happened in 2012,

I was half in and half out of understanding things about my life,

seeing patterns and the point in the high levels of duality in my life,

and also the point of many of the "bad" things in my life and

I was also becoming more in tune with My Spirit Tribe.

 

Instead of a one way conversation (that could be easily ignored)

it became more and more of an obvious two way

street of information going both ways. 

 

Associating with others was really difficult after a certain point

(even more so than how it was all of my life) 

because as I became more and more telepathic and psychic,

I could sense people and their motivations,

truths and denials and lies better than ever.

 

Those abilities were always good, but I wasn't strong enough to trust what I knew

and information that came 100% of the time, and a lot of the time I didn't want to know.

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But as my abilities grew, it reached a point of infallibility.

And, I was getting constant validation from my

Spirit Tribe and the events that would follow.

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Now I know that a lot of these experiences were to train me,

to prepare me for the work I am to do. 

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But, when I was so sick, life seemed like a pointless

battle I was just surviving, and I didn't like it one bit,

things were serious-

 

We are talking VERY intense physical issues...

Year-long State Disability many times, in so much pain and physical distress that the simplest of things were so difficult, I was unable to work, have any social life and be around people.

 

 

I was drawn to The Hay House Summit in 2013,

that is where I first learned of what an Empath was, although they didn't speak of what

a Physical Empath is, and it was still some time before I knew of that concept as well. And even now, in 2018, MOST people don't know what an Empath is, and what a Physical Empath is. 

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Mostly, Physical Empaths are called SICK.

Because they are sick with energy, but they don't have to be.

 

One of the guests had a meditation that at this point I cannot

remember-but shortly into the meditation I was pulled into another dimension...

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It was quite amazing, and I remember it very well, but will forgo a lot of the visual

detail at this time.

 

 I found myself sitting in front of a very bright Light Body,

all I could see or feel was
bright light

and love energy from this being. 

 

When they "spoke" to me, it was as familiar

as the thought in my head, but it was not

from me but coming through me,

like so many

"knowings"

and feelings and thoughts and

ideas throughout my life.

 

Here is where without speech,

I understood things about my body

in what is best described as an

"informational download".

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I was told about the energy that was locked and stored

in my body that was holding me down and back

and had been making me sick my entire life. 

 

Negative, old, energy stuck and connected to my Chakras

and I was told how to release it,

untangle it and let go of it,

and I was told that if I did that, I would be better.

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I would be what I was meant to be. 

 

Healthy. 

 

I wouldn't be sick anymore and it would be quick and feel really good.

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"Remember," they said,

"Remember how it works, and how it should feel.

If you remember and believe it to be so, it will be."

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And so, I got out of that mediation and I did what I was told to do.

 

Intentionally cleaning and clearing out myself energetically.

It didn't take more than 5 minutes, and I was never, ever the same. 

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I felt a lightness and a buzzing and tingling in my

body that wasn't uncomfortable anymore, but 

 

I ACTUALLY FELT GOOD!

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I wasn't exhausted, I wasn't in horrible pain, I didn't feel like I lived 

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IN A PRISON!

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No more Fibromyalgia,

no more seeing 5 different specialists,

no more 10 daily prescriptions,

no more feeling like utter crap 24/7.

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That was in 2013.

 

It is mid 2018 and

ONLY when I was energetic/psychic attack

have I felt that sort of sick,

and now I know what that is, and good luck

to anything or anyone

who tries to get in to do me harm. 

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And they do try, they will always try. 

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As ANY Light Worker or Warrior will confirm, we are under attack,

and even that helps us in the end to get and be and live stronger lives. 

 

We ARE in a Spiritual War. 

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The Dark will always try to stop The Light.

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THAT DOES NOT MEAN

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that we as Light Workers/Warriors are without responsibility

for our lives and our part in situations and interactions.

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I've had to learn in so many ways how dark forces come through

and it's been tough to navigate.

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But pretending that it doesn't happen or exist is a dangerous game and something The Dark hopes 

happens more and more. Nevertheless and in either case, they do what they do. 

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They do not hold back on how or who or what or

when or why of what it takes to slow one of us down. 

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It's like real life Star Wars out there but no one can see it. 

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But people CAN FEEL IT. 

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This time in our history is like no other time. 

 

In other times, we were hunted, tortured and burned alive for

knowing what we know and being what we are. 

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Times have changed in so many ways.

 

They try to stop us in much more quiet ways, covert and using all sorts of people

and things that don't even realize how they are playing

a part in the works of The Dark, how they (and the things they love) are being used.

 

Even that won't be as affective as it has been because

more and more people will know and take control back. 

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However, there are two schools of thought when it goes to 

 

The Spiritual War:

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1-

Do not give any negative thought or IDEA

that there is anything that is working against you,

or that there are any dark forces in your life. There is NOT a Spiritual War.

You are TOTALLY in control of your energy and the energy around you.

So if you DO NOT THINK about it, it won't be in your world.

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2-

There is a Spiritual War. Light Warriors and Light Workers are targeted

 and hunted and played with in order to ULTIMATELY stop, or at least seriously

slow down, using ANY available means necessary to keep the Light Body

off course of their Light Mission(s). Light workers know this and acknowledge

The Dark Forces and those who play apart in helping and giving

energy to them, whether they are aware or not.

This means to be ULTRA aware of your energy how and waht is affecting it

and those around you. 

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I believe that the first way to approach this is very irresponsible.

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It really bothers me to hear Spiritual Teachers talk about

ignoring Dark Energies and pretending they don't exist

so they (the dark)will not have any power.

and that's just THE DARK SPREADING RUMORS that they

HOPE people will believe.

 

I refuse to debate this issue with anyone. 

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I've come face to face with several people and

animals who were NOT in control-something(s) ELSE was. 

 

I know what is out there and I also know that I am only

fully aware of a small amount

of what is out there, and I know a lot.

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We cannot live closed off to what is possible, and that

is that ANYTHING. is possible

 

I personally am HIGHLY protected even though I still have to deal with

energies coming at me for who and what I am and what I am here to do. 

 

I accept that.

 

And...Because I know that  

it is easy to shed these energetic dark bonds,

and that's one of the things I do in my healing sessions.

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Among other things, I detach dark energies

that push buttons of innocent people.

 

And if I can't DO it, at least I let people know about the phenomenon,

and to The Dark, that's bad enough. 

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It can tend to do one of two things depending on where people are in their

vibration. Either way...

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Knowledge is POWER. 

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The more people we heal and help to remember,

the more those people come online with who THEY are,

and THEY create the LIGHT LIFE they were meant to,

THEY live their most authentic Soul selves,

THEY stop being in pain and confused, 

THEY tap into their own Creator Energies and

bring new light into the world and the universe.

 

No way can The Dark catch up and overtake the tidal wave of light that 

all of us Light Bodies are and fuel.

 

I am beyond passionate, and have been working on this for many lifetimes,

along with many other Light Bodies, to help get us here, to this place and point in time. 

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So I can be sick, heal, get myself AWAKE and online,

understand that I was the one healing my animals

& wild animals from many issues and injuries,

and one day I eventually tried it on a person.

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To hear My Guides say and PUSH me,

 

"HELP HER!

HELP YOURSELF!

End this pain, and both of your suffering

NOW!"

 

I was feeling her lower back pain in my

lower back, and it was really, really bad.

Like a huge nail hammered in between 

L3 & 6 in her spine.

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But ONCE AGAIN, thinking it was my own pain,

since I have an old injury there too. 

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I did not make the connection, but assumed it was a coincidence

that we were both in back pain. Forgetting the fact that I didn't have

that issue until getting into close proximity to her.

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Even a couple of years after understanding,

it wasn't obvious to me in those moments

with my friend at a party, where neither of us could dance we

were in so much pain.

 

That it was her pain in both of us,

and I could do something about it.   

 

I asked her, "Can I do something to try to help you? So we BOTH aren't in so much pain?" 

 

She laughed and said "YES!"  

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And right there, outside on that summer night, with Fire Spinners and

drumming all around us, with many people present, 

I turned her around and I felt her shoulders and her down her spine,

and when I got to her lower back, I felt the heat, the hot, the pain.

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"This isn't your old injury, this is negative energy using

your old injury as a place to sit. Let's get rid of it."

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I just knew.

 

And then I went to work with her untangling the energy,

working with it to release, pulling it up and out,

like I did to myself many years before.

 

And...Within a minute or two-

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I watched her go from agony to being pain free,

to feel her pain in my body release when hers did,

to see her face light up and say, 

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"It's Gone!"

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This 21 year old person who went from hardly being able to stand

she was in so much pain, to BOUNCING around and able to dance, to look into 

those eyes and see the relief....

To feel that hug.

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It makes me emotional thinking about it.

Everything changed in that those moments.

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It was beyond amazing.

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When someone who was watching said,

 

"What did you do!?! That was OH MY GOD!!!!"

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I said, 

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"I helped her."

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She was the first person and since then there's been

many more people and animals I've helped in many ways. 

 

Every single thing I've intended to help/cure/get rid of has worked. 

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I hope to help you too, if you're so guided-please reach out.

 

Infinite LOVE Light & Blessings, 

 

~8~

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INFINITI